Sick of Myself

The Bellotis sell the land where the bar used to be, marking the end of an era. Rudy spends the day moving through Newark alone. He goes to Elena's apartment, and they spend time together, talking, before he leaves without saying what he came to say. He tracks down an old lieutenant named Sal who was present the night Juan died. Sal tells him that Juan discovered Rudy had been quietly protecting the Bellottis and forced Rudy to execute him at gunpoint as a loyalty test, with his men watching and a threat against everyone Rudy cared about if he refused. The beating they gave him after took his memory of the killing. Rudy forgives Sal and walks out. He spends the rest of the day visiting people across Newark, then drives back to Vermont and calls Deb from a rest stop.